Though i am only nineteen and there is a lot to happen ahead but the things which are occurring or are going to be occurred are all consequences of my past..!
People learn from their mistakes but i don't!
And when I am alone I keep going back to the sweet incidents and times which have already passed ! Visiting the past makes me happy ..
conversations throughout 5 years...they are all i have!
"i miss u....
i miss u too...
u are my bestest friend...can't live without toking to you..
i love you...i love you too..
its being tooo much..you repeat the same old story everyday...
don't wanna tok to you go tok to ur other friends...bye!
bye!..
u are my bestest friend...can't live without toking to you..
i love you...i love you too..
its being tooo much..you repeat the same old story everyday...
don't wanna tok to you go tok to ur other friends...bye!
bye!..
* * *
tried but couldn't live without toking to you..
u are an addiction..
missed me eh??
a lot....
awww same here baby..!!
no matter wot happens your place won't be shared with anyone.. ever!"
and a thousand more conversations...(and a bright idiotic smile on my round face glows)
and then the sudden realization that the past is no more..it hurts a million times more ..it breaks me down..tears me apart.....those faded pictures of the past scroll over my mind...
i see my friends preoccupied with someone else..not necessarily boyfriends but someone with whom they can share everything to..someone they call a best friend........
and no i am not jealous!!!
but yes m hurt...there were days when i had you...there were days when every moment of my life was known to you...there were times when it used to pain u more when i had a cut....there were days when we were happy!
at times wonder why can't we forget a certain things!.
why our brain ain't a memory chip from where data can be deleted...??
deleting a five long years from the life ain't easy but i badly need to..
as these flashbacks are poisonous..
these are killing me....
Why I am the only one destined to suffer like this?
And hence I give up to life...it has won...it has finally taught me that
no i can't have a true love..neither do i deserve a true friend'
friends are not to stay forever no matter how much close to you they are for a certain span of time they will eventually move away'
tried but couldn't live without toking to you..
u are an addiction..
missed me eh??
a lot....
awww same here baby..!!
no matter wot happens your place won't be shared with anyone.. ever!"
and a thousand more conversations...(and a bright idiotic smile on my round face glows)
and then the sudden realization that the past is no more..it hurts a million times more ..it breaks me down..tears me apart.....those faded pictures of the past scroll over my mind...
i see my friends preoccupied with someone else..not necessarily boyfriends but someone with whom they can share everything to..someone they call a best friend........
and no i am not jealous!!!
but yes m hurt...there were days when i had you...there were days when every moment of my life was known to you...there were times when it used to pain u more when i had a cut....there were days when we were happy!
at times wonder why can't we forget a certain things!.
why our brain ain't a memory chip from where data can be deleted...??
deleting a five long years from the life ain't easy but i badly need to..
as these flashbacks are poisonous..
these are killing me....
Why I am the only one destined to suffer like this?
And hence I give up to life...it has won...it has finally taught me that
no i can't have a true love..neither do i deserve a true friend'
friends are not to stay forever no matter how much close to you they are for a certain span of time they will eventually move away'
so life thanks for teaching me..though in harsh way..And now on i will be following your lesson...
love will just be another abstract noun.....
friends will be momentary......
relations would be superficial....bondings wont exist.....
#timetogrowstrong..!
